Good evening everyone,
I occaisionally post when I have a mental health episode, for those that suffer they know what its like, for those that don't I hope you never do, but I hope below will explain it a little bit. This wa a particuarly bad one.
I need to start with an apology, I'm afraid I'm not very well at the moment, my head is not behaving its self as it should and is causing some concern for some very close friends. I've no idea what triggers these but I can say it isn't pleasant. If I had wanted to I couldn't have written this an hour ago, I posted on Facebook last night "I've realised I'm not invincible", I think that was the start of this episode, I'll not go into the details but what goes through my head isn't nice to say the least. I was lying in my pit this morning shivering and crying, I posted that I was cold and tired about 0630, when I posted that I had no idea I was going to hit an even lower spot! I'll not draw you a picture...
I've not been right for a couple of months and without the help of a close friend I doubt I would have got out of hospital. I apologise if I've been a bit off with people during this time, its hard to have a smile on your face when feeling so low.
I'm heading to the Forest of Dean for Christmas, I'm hoping to get on a campsite there for the, as I call it, the Silly Season - sit outside a Tesco for a few days and you would know what I mean! I would like to thank Carolyn Hinton and her famil for inviting me to Christmas dinner, I'll try not to be too much of Bah Humbug.
Right, this is a big thank you to the small group of people that have kept me going over the last couple of days, I'm sure you can work out who you are.